This year, I learned a valuable lesson about social media .
After two months of literally begging for
financial assistance, posting educational materials on how I’m in pain and how
horrible this incurable disease (myalgic encephalomyelitis) I suffer with is, I was left with an empty medical fundraiser.
That really and truly hurt.
It primarily hurt because during the last 8 week I spent
HOURS of free time & energy that I didn’t have answering tweets, DMs and emails asking questions about the illness ,
coddling the egos of those whom feigned empathy and allowed them to bathe in my emphatic
Many people made promises to support me.
Almost none of
them delivered on those promises. I’m not bitter, but have been awakened.
now understand that to the
majority of those following me, I’m merely T&A. With that said, it
should be easy to understand that most of you are now merely a wallet
and a way to pay a rising stack of bills. Right? It’s a clear cut
& even exchange that way.
Its obvious that I’m better received in natural dominant form,
so you can expect a lot more Femdom /Findom from me this
year as well as slow burn & tease content & eclectic fetish art porn. There
will hardly be any basic “vanilla” porn. It’s just not who I am and I
refuse to continue to alter myself to suit supply and demand notions. I
am who I am and I’m waiting
for the perfect audience to present itself to ME.
This four month flare of mine (a medical relapse of chronic
illness) and the hardships my family endured this year
have been unspeakably difficult. The failed attempt to fund raise was
the catalyst of this metamorphosis in so many ways .
I’m well aware that I’ve lost many vanilla porn fans who only
follow those who post lots of free graphic content and regularly shoot
xxx with pro companies. but thats fine, I’m permanently independent now and those jobs were
stepping stones. If you hoped I’d begin shooting for others regularly,
I am sorry but I won’t. I’d rather own and control My own content and
marketing. I’m also aware that I’ve lost many BBW fans as I
unavoidably lost weight during this flare. Even when I go back into
full remission, the likelihood of my gaining all of the weight is
practically non-existent I’m not a feedee. i just weigh what i weigh
I’m just being blunt here because I’d personally rather have
members who are interested in ME as a whole and my story as part of the
brand.I’m probably going to lose even more “fans” after this announcement. My struggle will be even
greater health wise and financially as result and that’s OK. It’s part
of the process. I’m oddly at peace with what I’m mentally and
emotionally preparing to endure. It’s akin to a phoenix burning &
being reborn from its ashes.
In closing, what you will see
is a transition from naive newbie who learned through a great number
of cons trials and errors that ***IF*** you are someone who consistently
supports Me (and by support I mean financial and not with compliments)
not much will change, because you repeat customers know I hook you up
like that, But for those who’ve not yet proven themselves, it’s My
rules,. No three strikes and second chances cost double.
simply not well enough or have the desire to squander another single
moment nor ounce of my energy. On social networks, you may see less chit
chat w/ non customers, I refuse to even answer any tweet, DM or email
that starts with hey, hi, hru, wassup, blah blah blah, or stupid
questions that the answers to are readily found on my page. I have a 5
email protocol which will be strictly enforced from now on for new
clients attempting to discuss their fetishes under pretenses they’re
thinking about ordering something.
Non refundable deposits will
be required on all orders of custom video and Skype sessions as I’m done
exhausting myself getting my area prepped for a shoot, dressing,
getting my hair and make up done, or spent time planning, or money
purchasing items needed for specific vids/shows only to be backed out
on. There will be NO exceptions on pre payment requirements. Nothing
will be done until after payment clears.
This phoenix will soar again and I hope my true followers will soar with me